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  “Why?”

  “Who are you?” Their questions ran together.

  And in answer to both, the woman held out the medallion she wore on a chain: a barbed trefoil like a bouquet of fish hooks, glittering with the darkly sinister beauty of a reptile’s eye. “Do you know what this is?” She went down on one knee in the sand, her black braids dropping forward. They shuffled closer, blinking.

  “Sibyl… ?” Moon whispered timidly, seeing Sparks clutch his own medal out of the corner of her eye. But then her gaze was wholly the woman’s, and she knew why the dark, compelling eyes seemed to open on infinity. A sibyl was the earthly channel for supernatural wisdom, chosen through the Lady’s Own judgment, who by temperament and training had the strength to withstand a holy visitation.

  The woman nodded. “I am Clavally Bluestone Summer.” She set her hands against her forehead. “Ask, and I will answer.”

  They did not ask, dazed by the knowledge that she would — could — answer any question they could imagine; or that the Lady Herself would answer them with Clavally’s lips, while the sibyl was swept away in a trance.

  “No questions?” Formality fell away again, held at bay by her good humor. “Then tell me who you are, who already know everything you need to know?”

  “I’m Moon,” Moon said, pushing at her bangs. “Moon Dawntreader Summer. This’s my cousin, Sparks Dawntreader Summer, and I don’t know enough to ask about anything!” she finished miserably.

  “I do.” Sparks pushed forward, holding out his medal. “What did this used to be?”

  “Input…” Clavally took it between her fingers, frowned faintly, murmuring. Her eyes turned to smoky quartz, moved wildly, like a dreamer’s; her hand fisted over the disc. “Sign of the Hegemony — two crosses bound within a circle symbolize the unity of Kharemough and its seven subordinate worlds… medal awarded for valorous service, Kispah uprising: “What all may strive for, this one has found. To our beloved son Temmon Ashwini Sirus, this day, 9:113:07.” Sandhi, official language of Kharemough and the Hegemony. No further analysis.” Her head dropped forward, let go by an unseen force. She swayed gently on her knees, sighed, sat back. “Well.”

  “But what does it mean?” Sparks looked down at the disc which still danced against his parka front, and his mouth formed an uncertain line.

  Clavally shook her head. “I don’t know. The Lady only speaks through me, not to me. That’s the Transfer — the way it is.”

  Sparks ’s mouth quivered.

  “The Hegemony,” Moon said quickly. “What’s the Hegemony, Clavally?”

  “The off worlders.” Clavally’s eyes widened slightly. “The Hegemony is what they call themselves. So it’s an off world thing, then… I’ve never been to Carbuncle.” Her glance went to it again. “How did this get here, so far from the star port and the Winters?” And back to their faces, “You’re merrybegots, aren’t you? Your mothers went to the last Festival together, and were lucky enough to come back with you… and also this keepsake?”

  Sparks nodded, as much in awe of adult logic as he was of the Lady’s trances, “Then… my father isn’t a Summer; he isn’t even on Tiamat?”

  “That I can’t tell you.” Clavally stood up. Moon saw a strange concern cross her face as she looked back at Sparks . “But I do know that merrybegots are specially blessed. Do you know why I’m here?”

  They shook their heads.

  “Do you know what you want to be when you grow up?”

  “Together,” Moon answered without thinking.

  Again the bright laughter. “Good! I’m making this journey through the Windwards to urge all the young Summers, before they settle into life, to remember that they can dedicate themselves to the Sea in another way than as fishers or farmers. They can serve the Lady by serving their fellow human beings as sibyls, as I do. Some of us are born with a special seed inside us, and it only waits for the Lady to touch us and make it grow. When you’re old enough, maybe you two will hear Her call, and go to a choosing place.”

  “Oh.” Moon shivered slightly. “I think I hear Her now!” She pressed cold hands against her leaping heart, where a dream seed sprouted.

  “Me too, me too!” Sparks cried eagerly. “Can we go now, can we go with you, Clavally?”

  Clavally pulled up the hood of her parka against a sudden buffet of wind. “No, not yet. Wait a little longer; until you’re certain of what you hear.”

  “How long?”

  “A month?”

  She rested her hands on the two small shoulders. “More like years, I think.”

  “Years!” Moon protested.

  “By then you’ll be sure it isn’t just the crying of sea birds you hear. But always remember, in the end it won’t be you who will choose the Lady, but the Lady Who will choose you.” She looked again, almost pointedly, at Sparks .

  “All right.” Moon wondered at the look, and straightened her shoulders resolutely under the hand. “We’ll wait. And we’ll remember.”

  “And now—” the sibyl dropped her hands — “I think someone is waiting for you.”

  Time began to flow forward again, and they fled, running — with many backward glances — toward town.

  “Moon, remember the last thing she said to us?” The silver play of notes dissolved as Sparks lowered his flute and looked back, breaking in on Moon’s memory. The mers stopped their own song, looking toward the boat.

  “Clavally?” Moon guided the outrigger around the point of land that jagged inward at the mouth of the bay. The shoreline of the Choosing Island was as spiny as the trefoil the sibyls wore. “You mean, that my mother was waiting for us?”

  “No. That the Lady chooses us, not the other way around.” Sparks glanced toward the surf line, made his eyes come back to her face. “I mean… what if She only chooses one of us? What will we do?”

  “She’ll choose us both!” Moon grinned. “How could She do anything else? We’re merrybegots — we’re lucky.”

  “But what if She doesn’t?” He fingered the packing of moss where the halves of the wooden hull had been lashed together. Inseparable… he frowned slightly. “Nobody makes you become a sibyl, do they, just because you pass the test? We can swear to each other now, that if only one of us is chosen, that one will turn it down. For the sake of the other.”

  “For the sake of us both.” Moon nodded. But She will choose us both. She had never doubted, since that moment years ago, that she would come to this place and hear the Lady call her. It had been her heart’s desire for half a lifetime; and she had made certain Sparks always shared it, not letting his hopeless star dreams lead him away from their common goal.

  She put out her arm and Sparks took it somberly; they shook, hands clasping wrists. The clasp became a hug before she knew it, and the doubts in her heart burned away like morning fog. “Sparkie, I love you… more than anything under the sky.” She kissed him, tasting salt on his lips. “Let the Sea Mother witness that you hold my willing heart, only you, now and forever.”

  He repeated the words, clearly and proudly, and together they sipped sea water from their cupped hands to complete the vow. “Nobody can say we’re still too young to pledge after this journey!” They had pledged their love for the first time when they were barely old enough to recite the words, and everyone had laughed. But they had been true to each other ever since; and through the years they had shared everything, including the hesitant, yearning inevitability of lips touching, and hands, and flesh…

  Moon remembered a hidden cranny among the rocks on a leeward bay; warm callused hands of stone cupping their shivering bodies as they lay together in love under the bright noon, while the tide whispered far away down the beach. Now, as then, she could feel the strength of the need that bound them together: the heat they made between them that held the cold loneliness of their world at bay. The union of souls that overcame them in the final moment — the height, the wholeness, that nothing else in their world could ever give her. Together they would enter thi
s new life, and at last they would belong to their world as completely as they belonged to each other… Sparks’s lips brushed her ear; she leaned forward, her arms going around him again. The boat nosed toward shore, untended.

  * * *

  “Do you see anything?”

  Sparks checked the boat a last time where it lay beached firmly in shells and storm wrack, beyond the high-tide line. The family totem carved at its prow regarded him with three staring painted eyes. The tide was still going out, but it had already exposed enough wet-mirrored sand so that dragging the canoe up the beach had taken away their breath. One of the mers had actually come out onto the shore with them, let them stroke its wet, slick, brindle fur with timid hands. He had never been close enough to touch one before; they were as large as he was, and twice as heavy.

  “Not yet — here!” Moon’s voice reached him, along with the frantic waving of her hand. She had followed the mer’s floundering progress as it moved on up the beach. “Here by the stream, a path. It must be the one Gran told me about!”

  He started across the littered beach slope toward the freshwater outlet, abandoned shells crunching under his feet. The stream had laid down a wide band of red silt in the ochre, cut into the red with channels of moss-green water flow. Where it left the shore, Moon stood waiting to start into the hills.

  “We follow the stream up?”

  She nodded, following the swift blue-green rise of the cloaked land with her eyes. Naked peaks of raw red stone soared even higher. Those islands were new on the measureless time scale of the Sea; their spines still clawed the sky, undulled by age.

  “Looks like we climb.” He jammed his hands into his pockets, uncertain.

  “Yeah.” Moon watched the mer start back down the beach. Her hand tingled with the feel of its heavy fur. “We’ll dance in the rigging today.” She looked back at him, suddenly very much aware of what their presence here meant. “Well, come on,” almost impatiently. “The first step is the hardest.” They took it together.

  But it was a step that had been taken before, Moon thought as she climbed… how many times? She found the answer engraved in the hillsides, where the passage of feet had worn down the airy volcanic pumice until sometimes they walked in narrow tracks eaten away to the height of their knees. And how many have climbed it just to be refused? Moon thought a quick prayer, looking down as the trail became a narrow ledge running ankle deep above a canyon of evergreen fern and impenetrable bush. The day was utterly silent when the wind died; she had not seen a trace of any living thing larger than a click beetle. Once, perhaps, the distant cry of a bird… The stream winked at her from cover hundreds of feet below, and on her left the green-coated wall vaulted another hundred into the sky. Though she was used to the precarious footing of sailors and the narrow paths among fish pens, these contrasts made her giddy.

  Sparks clutched at a protruding bush, scratching his face. “This isn’t for weak hearts,” not really meaning to say it out loud.

  “Probably the point,” she mumbled, and wiped her own face on her sleeve.

  “You mean maybe this is the test?” They pressed gingerly past a crumbling patch of eroded wall.

  “Lady!” half curse, half prayer. “It’s enough for me!”

  “How far does this go? What if it gets dark?”

  “I don’t know… The valley’s closing, up there.”

  “I thought you said Grandpa did this, when he was young? I thought you knew.”

  Moon swallowed. “Gran told me he gave up and turned back. He never even found the cave.”

  “Now you tell me!” But he began to laugh. “This isn’t what I thought it would be, somehow.”

  The stream curved back on itself below, and beyond the next turn of the wall the ledge widened and the trail widened with it. Here in this inland valley cut off from the sea wind, the heat of the sun echoed and re-echoed from the heated rock. Moon pulled off her heavy parka as she walked; Sparks already wore his knotted around his shoulders. The breeze pressed her damp linen shirt against her chest. She unlaced the shirt down to her belt, scratched herself, sighing. “I’m hot, you know that? I’m really hot! What do people do when they get too hot? You can always put on more clothes, but you can only take off so many.” She loosened the waterskin from her belt and drank. Somewhere ahead she heard a rushing sound, but she only thought of fat sizzling in a kettle.

  “We probably won’t have to worry about it.” Sparks shrugged with good-natured reasonableness. “High summer’s still a long way off. We’ll probably be dead before it gets that hot.” His foot slipped; he went down on one knee with a grunt. “Maybe sooner.”

  “Funny.” She helped him up; her own feet were as clumsy as stones. “You can already see the Summer Star. I saw it through my fingers a few days… Oh—” whispered. She rubbed her stinging face with the back of her hand.

  “Yes.” Sparks slumped against the out curving wall. Beyond the final turn of the trail the rushing became the roar of water flung over a precipice, battered by rocks, a silvered sacrifice falling eternally to its death. And there the trail ended.

  They stood breathless and confused in the cacophony of sound and spray beside the falls. “It can’t end here!” Sparks struck at the falling water. “We know this is the right path. Where is it?”

  “Here!” Moon crouched, peering over the edge beside the water curtain, loose strands of hair falling forward in dripping fingers. “Handholds in the rock.” She stood up again, wiping her hair back. “Suddenly this isn’t…” She shook her head, the words lost as she looked back at him and saw the anger on his face.

  “What is this, anyway?” Sparks shouted down the valley toward the sea. “What more proof do You want? Do we have to kill ourselves?”

  “No!” Moon pulled at his arm, his temper grating like sand on her fatigue. “She wants us to be sure. And we are.” She crouched down again, pulling off her boots, and put a foot over the edge.

  She began to climb down, letting the roar and the spray fill her senses, batter down her fear. She saw Sparks begin the climb above her; telling herself that countless people had gone down before her, through countless years… (foot fumbling over wet rock)… she would do it, too… (another step! her fingers clutched a lip of stone)… this wet climb was no more than the rigging of a ship, which she had climbed without thought countless times… (and once more)… always trusting in the Sea Mother to place her hands and feet surely… (fingers cramping; she bit her lip)… She concentrated on belief, in the Lady, in herself; because only if she doubted either one would she… (her foot beat against the wet-slimed wall, finding no crevice, no step, no — )

  “Sparks!” Her voice scaled up. “It just ends!”

  “…ledge!…” She heard the word, distorted by the roaring and her own terror; clung to it desperately, as she hugged the cliff face. “Go right!” She kicked right, opening her eyes as her foot found the ledge of stone. Blinking hard, she saw it disappear behind the falling water. She reached out, with a quick twist of her body pulled herself over and into the cleft. Sparks came after her; she put out her hand to help him across.

  “Thanks.” He shook himself, shook his stiffened hands.

  “Thank you.” She took a long breath. They moved deeper into the cleft together, realizing, as their eyes adjusted to the green dappling of light, that it pushed on into the side of the valley. “This is it — this must be it! We’re here, the choosing-place…”

  They stopped again, their hands reaching out for each other instinctively. They stood breathless, waiting. Nothing called them but the voice of the falls. Nothing touched them but the random drift of spray. “Come on,” Sparks tugged at her, “let’s go deeper.”

  The cleft peaked in shadows far overhead, making Moon think of praying hands, as they followed the serpentine shaft into the rock face. Sparks collided abruptly with a sharp turn. “I knew I should’ve brought a candle.”

  “It’s not dark.” Moon looked at him in surprise. “It’s strange how t
he light keeps getting greener…”

  “What are you talking about? It’s like being buried alive — I can’t even see you!”

  “Come on.” Unease began to stir in her. “It’s not that dark — just open your eyes. Come on, Sparkie!” She pulled on his arm. “Can’t you feel it? Like music…”

  “No. This place gives me the creeps.”

  “Come on.” She pulled harder, straining now.

  “No — wait…” He gave a few steps, and a few more.

  The music filled her now, centered at her head and spreading through her body like the rhythm of her blood. It touched her like silk, with the taste of ambrosia and the green light of the sea. “Don’t you feel it?”

  “Moon.” Sparks grunted as he came up against another wall in the darkness. “Moon, stop! It’s no good. I can’t see anything, I don’t hear anything… I’m — failing, Moon.” His voice wavered.

  “No, you’re not! You can’t.” She turned distractedly to the truth in his eyes, unfocused like a blind man’s, the confusion on his face. “Oh, you can’t…”

  “I can’t breathe, it’s like tar. We’ve got to turn back, before it’s too late.” His hand tightened over her wrist, pulling her back toward him, away from the music and the light.

  “No.” Her free hand closed over his, tried to break his grip. “You go back without me.”

  “Moon, you promised! We promised — you have to come.”

  “I do not!” She jerked loose, saw him stumble back, surprised and hurt. “ Sparks , I’m sorry…”

  “Moon…”

  “I’m sorry…” She backed away, into the arms of the music. “I have to! I can’t stop now, I can’t help it — it’s too beautiful. Come with me! Try, please try!” getting farther and farther away from him.

  “You promised. Come back, Moon!”

  She turned and ran, his voice drowned by the song of her breaking heart’s desire.

  She ran until the cleft widened again, spilling her out into an unnatural space lit by the perfectly ordinary flame of an oil lamp. She rubbed her eyes in the sudden gold, as if she had come out of darkness. When she could see again, when the shining song fell away and released her, she was not surprised to find Clavally waiting, and a stranger… Clavally, whose smile she could never forget, through years, or even a lifetime.